Ok, I'm struggling. Part of me just figures...phooey on it all, I'm overweight, I'm from a family who is overweight...it's just the way we are and it's not going to change. It's so easy to just sit back and blame it on genetics! Ha, I'm just kidding myself.
I haven't written in the journal all weekend. I haven't pigged-out or stuffed my face till I was sick, but I also have not made good choices. I haven't overeaten, but what I have ate is probably considered junk.
I even considered calling it quits with working with my RD friend Diane.
Will regroup in my head and write some more tomorrow.
Start writing my friend. Yes, you come from a family of overweight people. There is a genetic link. This is true. But how do you FEEL? Physically and emotionally, how do you feel? Does your back hurt? Knees? Are you beating yourself up when you look at your reflection in the mirror? If any of those are true, you need to decide if it is worth it to decide if you want to continue on the journey. Please know that you are more than a number on a scale or a size of clothing. Your worth does not come from those things. Remember you are the boss of you...and whatever you decide is the RIGHT decision. I'm behind you all the way!
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